Monday, May 27, 2019

37 weeks+4 days

So it's pretty close!!!! It's unbelievable that we will be entering two weeks until your due date in just a few days. I've been talking to you and asking that you stay in until 40 weeks, and I'm hoping you will! The midwife said 38 1/2 weeks is optimal - and we are nearly there! I also really really really want to get my work stuff in a good place, cos they've been so great to me, and giving me three months of paid maternity leave!!!

Back to you: you're the size of romaine lettuce/canary melon (wth is that?)/honeydew melon. You're basically just chilling inside there and gaining weight until the big day. I'm working with a midwife and a doula, and for the last 4 weeks of the pregnancy I'm supposed to be cutting out sugar and refined stuff (that was hard at first but I'm doing it), eating fresh and healthy foods, and drinking red raspberry leaf tea and taking evening primrose oil to get my cervix nice and ready. I'm also doing my prenatal exercises (cat cows and pelvic stretches) and continuing with my hypnosis pregnancy practices every day. I especially like the joyful affirmations which has this one great line: "people's negative feelings belong only to them."

I've shared my birth plan with a few people, though I'm hesitant, and several have expressed some type of concern. Which is why I'm kinda not anymore. Anyways...

About negative people: one of the things I did last year, was completely scrub my life of negative people. Unfortunately that includes some family members, but with that release, it's given me the space to truly appreciate and bring in more amazing people into my life. I've also become sensitive to this type of energy when befriending new people, which is what I'm about to get into.

A work colleague started a few months back, and we hit it off. I was super excited to have another friend to do things with, etc. She also joined my meditation studio, so that was a plus. I've pretty much only gotten good vibes from her, except for one evening. After a meditation class, we decided to grab food. She's got a food restriction and in her defense, the restaurant didn't handle it well. (Telling her the meal she wanted wasn't allergy free, when it really was, the manager of the restaurant coming over, etc. etc.) But the way she handled it, took over the evening in the worst way possible. And then she got snippy with all the restaurant staff and...it put a damper on the entire meal and she even got strange with me.

It devastates me kinda, when a new friend shows a side of themselves that is so unpleasant that you've really got to do something about it. It wasn't just her behavior with the restaurant staff, but some unsolicited advice she gave me, that reminded me of a certain someone who is no longer in my life. Very preachy and self-righteous and "let me tell" you - when I didn't ask you! So I've given myself a lot of distance from this person, and I'm really proud of myself!

If there is anything I want to teach you, it is that it's OK to make the decision to be alone, because not everyone is able to be your friend, in the way you would like or deserve. It's just the way life is! And I hope you learn that lesson sooner rather than later.

OK, onto the good stuff: your dad and I have made such amazing changes to our place! New couch, new dresser, shelving unit...and! and! We cleared out/cleaned/organized/arranged both the walk-in closet, as well as the huge closet full of junk at the front of the space. We even got a bassinet for you today where you'll be sleeping for the first few months. The bassinet retails for close to $200 and we got it secondhand from a really nice lady for $65!

We had a lot of work to do to get this space to be what it is right now, and both your dad and I are so thrilled with all of the changes we made. We've got a bit more than 2 weeks before your due date, and I'm hoping you stay inside until at least June 12 (my first day of maternity leave) but I've also got to come to terms with whenever you may come - would could be any day now. I finally packed some bags for the hospital - so we are ready! And this Tuesday we meet with our doula so I'm thrilled about that as well.

Anywho...onward to week 38!

Friday, May 17, 2019

36 weeks

I'm getting sick of the fruit and veggie sizes, so I'll just let you know that you are about 5-6 lbs already, and hopefully will pack on about 2 lbs before your delivery. That is, if you stay in there for 40 weeks! (I really hope you do.)

I have another sinus infection or cold again. And I'm feeling very cranky about it. The last one I had, stuck around for two whole weeks! Pregnancy really does a number on your immune system, cos, you know, your body is focused on other things.

This week I spoke to the midwife about my birth plan and even handed her a paper copy. She was fine (didn't seem the warmest, but she is not one of the midwives who will be attending to the birth, so whatever) and said things are looking good. I also had my weekly NST and chiropractor appointment, and those went well too...

Your dad and I are continuing to get things ready for you, and the biggest challenge we are going to face, is opening up that large closet and pulling everything out. I really need you to stay in because of this! I know that sounds ludicrous, but we really need to get everything sorted in the apartment before you come. Please!!

Your nanni and nanna and Auntie Shirin are coming tomorrow to drop off several of your things. Your car seat, and bath tub, and some other things. It's getting real!!!!

My body still feels, for the most part, good. But I've been waddling for a while, and my pelvis pain is still there (it will most likely be there until I give birth) but I've been able to still work out 4 days weekly, and walk a ton, so that's great. But I'm definitely starting to feel a tad...uncomfortable while moving. Nothing too bad, but it's definitely a feeling.

So...onward to week 37!!

Monday, May 13, 2019

One Month! (Freaking Out...)

You know, the time really just sneaks up on you! For the first 20 weeks of this pregnancy, I'll be frank: I wasn't sure which way it was going. You know, cos I'm old, and there is so much hysteria around pregnancy as is. So I wasn't sure if you were actually going to...you know...make it. But every step of the way, you've been nothing but an amazing baby. I had zero morning sickness, I honestly didn't feel pregnant until my belly started to feel hard, and you passed every prenatal test with flying colors. You and I make a great team!!! I was telling your dad that I'd like you to stay in your cozy cocoon for as long as possible, because I really want you to grow and be healthy and I feel that you are the safest in there.

Today marks exactly a month until your due date. Your dad and I are continuing to put things together in the apartment (most of the new furniture - couch, shelving unit, dresser) has arrived and been assembled, but there is still so much to do! I was really stressing about work, but I've reached a good place there, where my To-Do list is being tackled, plus, I feel truly blessed with my work situation after my job peeps threw me a surprise baby shower last week! It was so sweet! They had asked me to come in for an hour-long meeting to discuss my maternity leave. I was thinking I was going to be fired or something (though from the moment I told them I was expecting, they've been nothing but supportive) and I arrived to the "meeting" to find it was nothing of the sort! Here I was with my maternity plan prepped and ready to talk, and they were organizing the yummy Rasika take-out they ordered and I see all of these bags of gifts. I was so surprised and nearly cried! Plus they got me and your dad another gift card to use. We've been so blessed and showered with love and support throughout this entire journey.

One of the main big things I did this weekend is write out more thank you cards for our baby shower - 16 in fact! I plan to mail those out as soon as your dad signs them all. Goal is to get them all done before your arrival.

Anywho: I'm continuing to do my pregnancy exercises (cat cows every day and adding to that the pelvic stretch), going to the gym (where I'm continuing to squat a bunch), walking a lot, and I recently purchased a stability/birthing ball that I sit on and do exercises that loosen my round ligaments and hips. I'm still drinking a lot of water and taking all of my prenatal vitamins and food has been OK but every now and again I do splurge. It's an interesting thing, the lack of control that comes with being pregnant. I mean, I have no idea whatsoever when you are going to arrive.

Well, in the next few days we will be entering our 36th week. Unfortunately the doula we really wanted is not available, but I've already paid the deposit for placenta encapsulation (!) with another doula, who I'm considering to hire as the one for the big day. Other than that, I'm meeting with the midwives this week to discuss my birth preferences, and your dad and I are going to continue cleaning and purging and creating space for you!


Thursday, May 9, 2019

Weeks 34+35

Wowie!!!!!! We have five weeks until your due date. Crazy crazy crazy times!

I still remember when your dad and I found out I was pregnant...30 weeks ago. So much has changed, so much has opened up for us. It's truly a wondrous thing.

So apparently you are going to stay the length you are, which is the size of a pineapple/butternut squash/acorn squash/bunch of carrots (oh these fruit and veggie sizes are all over the place!) but you should be gaining a pound or two until your birth.

You continue to do well. In fact, during my third NST test (which I must get every week since my age qualifies me as high risk) the tech continued to marvel at how well you move, the incredible jumps in your heart rate. I don't fully understand it when she says "this is the best reading I'm going to get all day!" (she's said that the last two times I've been there) and when I asked her what that meant she just said you were really happy in there (??) and would be going to Harvard or Yale eventually. Still don't know what that means, but I guess it's a good thing and I'll take it!

Your dad and I are continuing to get our place ready for you. And we ordered your first set of diapers!!! We also did the last bit of traveling we are planning to do until your arrival, and we are kinda/nearly/maybe? close to getting the apartment fully prepped for you. I've encouraged your dad to hold off on pulling open that dreaded closet and cleaning it out. As soon as it opens, it's game over!

The other thing we've done is find a doula we want to work with. We are really excited about who we have selected, and hopefully your arrival will work with her schedule. Other than that, I'm treating these next five weeks like I'm training for a marathon. Meaning: I'm continuing to work out 4 days weekly, doing my other prenatal exercises, drinking a ton of water, and working on eating healthy foods. Cos I know when it's time for you to arrive it's not going to feel like nothing!

Ok, onward to week 36! (OMG, and only 4 weeks until your arrival!)